Shower me

My boyfriend candidate went nuts this year and gave me six gift. Not individually extravagant, but as a whole, it was an investment. I gave him a set of wine glasses. Nice but still, I was completely outgifted.

I have such a problem with this. Is the gift giving suppose to be equal? That's unrealistic considering our difference in income and the fact that everything I have rightfully goes to my children. Still, I'm uncomfortable. I want to give him things - it's just not practical.

Oddly he seems to know this and accept it. It didn't bother him at all. As a matter of fact, when I mentioned it, he was put out. He said it was his opportunity to be a little extravagant and spontaneous and if I was going to tie his hands with a budget aimed at achieving equality that would take all the fun out of the holidays.

He's right. But I must admit, I also never had a man shower me with gifts. I missed out on this. Maybe I'm not good at receiving. Could it be that I don't feel worthy of such attention or even that it means I somehow owe him? I'm such a head case. He's totally fine with the whole thing and I need to accept and let it go. Maybe among all my New Year's Resolutions I should add that one. Learn to be showered, pampered.... and maybe a little spoiled.